Showing posts with label Nature. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Nature. Show all posts

Saturday, August 29, 2015

B.B.M.F.F. - Belated BadMofo Friday - Neil Young! :)

This post I would like to highlight a personal hero of mine - Neil Young! <3 

I've been listening to this dude since the womb (literally) and got to see him perform for the first time recently in Essex for the launch of his Monsanto Years tour.  It was a life changing experience that still brings tears to my eyes when I recall it, but I'll be writing more in detail about that concert later, along with Mr. Young's current fight to aid Vermont as it undergoes a major lawsuit from the shady, scary powerful big corporate alliance known as the "Grocery Manufacturer's Association" - Mansanto and Starbucks being the primary companies within this group currently under his attack. 

First, I want to focus on Neil Young as a person - what makes him tick; who/what made him the powerful, loving soul that he his today; how his creative process works. Right before going to see him play up by Lake Champlain, I heard an enlightening interview he did with Howard Stern at the end of 2014. I learned a lot about Neil that I never knew before.

And now I love him as not just a musician, but a human being and role model too.
He is, indeed, and Bad Mofo!

random pic from the internet - Neil Young - Chronic Badass and all around Bad Mofo

They talked everything - from Mr. Young's survival of and recovery from childhood onset polio; the trauma of his father abusing his mother and then abandoning the family around the time Neil was 12; flunking out of high school; his influences and struggles as a budding artist; various bands he has played in, and musicians he's rolled with; what it was like to live with Rick James, be recorded by Smokey Robinson, and hang out with Charlie Manson; his personal values and philosophy and how those tie into his work, a description of his creative process that I think any creative type would find beneficial, even a fun little tip on how to manage paranoia induced by cannabis/altered states! One that this 17 year long consciousness explorer had never heard before. ("Chew on a few black peppercorns."

I was very inspired by Neil Young's insatiably positive attitude and perceptions about life, the world around him, and his role in it. He is prolific as an artist, and incredibly passionate about the causes he cares about - causes which resonate greatly with me and I think many young people today. The man has seen, overcome, and continues to manage a lot of shit (one of his children has Cerebral Palsy), and has somehow come out of it without harboring any bitterness or resentment. He has a huge "heart of gold" and I feel like he is a great role model for anyone, especially those who may be going through a hard time or facing some sort of challenge (where's my Spoonies at? Much love to ya'all!).

Here is a link to that interview (just audio). Below are my fave quotes.
Hope you find Neil Young's story and philosophy to be as inspiring as I have!

Should you want to learn more about him, Neil has co-written several books, the latest of which came out around the time of this interview, called "Special Deluxe" - a book about his love of cars, and pursuit of alternative energy sources for them (he's a gearhead too! I just love this man!).





"I'm working for the Music, that's my job in my head. I've always felt that was something that was given to me, and I have to give back to It."

"Everybody's family has something in it...These things happen to everybody...Not that particular thing [physical abuse] happens to everybody, thank God, cuz that's not what should happen, and the less of that we have the better off everything is, but, still, things happen, and everybody has the things they remember in their childhood that they wish they hadn't seen...something, there's something not perfect about everyone's childhood, you know."

"Music turned me into myself. I just love being able to disappear into the music."

"[Creativity/Art] It's an accident, it's a gift, and I never question it. I always, whatever I'm doing, if I have an idea I'll stop what I'm doing and do that...The idea is, Do It. You never know when, if you don't do it when it comes, it's a Gift. If somebody gives you a gift, do you throw it down and keep on going? No, you stop and check it out, and you say “Thank You”, or whatever, and treat it nicely. You don't want to scare it away or treat it with disrespect. It's like an animal, it's like a beast or something. You have to be nice...That's why I like to record things right away. So that I get it, before I start thinking. I don't wanna think, I just wanna do it...And then when I start to roll, the first time it comes out it's the right one." (Not sure if this resonates with other artists, but this is exactly how my creative process flows, was very cool to hear - at least for my poetry. Journalism and other forms of writing usually require extensive editing, they don't just "come out" like that.)

"You don't want to judge it [your art], Howard. It's a Gift. You just do it, and later let other people judge It. There's plenty of people to do that, you don't have to go very far and you can find them."

"When you play music you have to come from a certain place when you're doing it, and everything has to be clear, you know. You don't want to disturb that. I mean, I don't. I like to keep the love there. And if the love isn't there, you don't wanna do it."  

“Be great or be gone.”

"It's about the weather, Howard. Some days you got it, some days you don't...it's the Cosmic Weather, you can't always have it, which makes you appreciate it so much when you get it. And that's what life is all about, it's so beautiful the way it keeps changing."

“Find a way to make a living that makes you feel good.”

“Focus on the good things.”

“I'm not a hater. I want to be a lover, I want to love, I want to see what's good.”

“I'm going to do what I can do with the rest of my life...to fight to make the change I wish to see, to turn the Earth around.”

After discussing Neil's interest in Charlie Manson as a musician:
Howard: If you had to spend a day recording with either Charlie Manson or David Crosby, who would you pick?
Neil: That's a great question. I don't know, I'll have to think about that one. (Laughs)

On addiction and drugs: 
"It's a matter of wanting to [quit]. If you try to stop something that you want to do, that's an internal struggle that you really never will win. But if you don't wanna do it because you decide you don't want to do it, then it gets easy...I didn't want to stop because of all the death...I got really tired of waking up that way and not thinking and just hurting myself over and over and I was getting older. It was just a thought process just led me to the conclusion that it was probably not a good idea anymore."



On his book, “Special Deluxe”, Neil's love of cars and the enviornment, and advocacy for alternative energy sources like solar and cellulosic biofuel:
H: This is a book of cars, right? You love cars?
N: Yeah!
H: And yet, you're an environmentalist, and cars pollute the environment, so you're torn, right?
N: Well, that's kinda what the book is about.
H: What are we gonna do about this?
N: We're gonna change it...It's so sad, what's going on. Since 1950, we've lost 90% of the fish in the ocean, and doubled our own population. Since 1970, we've lost half of the wildlife on the planet. So, if you take those same numbers and put them into the future and realize we're actually doing more damage now, and look at our leaders [decisions]...Obama just opened up the Gulf of Mexico to fracking and just gave all the rights away, I don't get the sentience in that...
H: Who's going to change this?
N: It's gonna be people like you and me, Howard...We have to be aware of what's going on, and talk about it, and know that there is a lot that can be done...You don't focus on the negative, you focus on the positive and how much love you still have for this planet and that you can enjoy things and don't get angry about it, but realize that if the USA is the leader of the free world, why is it we're saying we can have maybe 2% solar energy by 2020 and Germany has 50% renewable energy right now, with the same sun and the same crops?
H: Why is that?
N: It's because of the leadership in this country, more than that, it's because of Corporate Control of Democracy, thru things like the Citizens United Act, which we just voted down yet it's still there because the majority wasn't big enough. So in America it's hard to make a change against the corporate powers that are in control of us. They control all of us, everybody that we elect, they're all tainted. Why do we have Hilary Clinton, when she was Secretary of State, going around to Europe to convince the little European countries, “Oh, don't get your oil from Russia. We give you this fracking technology and it's really great and you can frack and get your oil and energy right out of the land.” The thing is, that, this is what's going on – these are our Democrats, okay, these are the people that are supposed to be 'the savior'...and the Democrats are the ones who just opened up the Gulf of Mexico to fracking like the gulf doesn't need a break.
H: Are there a politician or group of politicians that you actually like?
N: None of them are empowered by the system that is here now to do anything other than take money from corporations and be controlled. I don't know of one politician that isn't controlled to some degree by the amount of donations from corporations. That's who paid for the campaigns. All these laws are wrong. They made it legal for corporations to be people. Corporations are not people!...The things that we don't know, I mean we talk about climate change, and we're doing more damage to the earth with all our wars...but if you want to find out, hey, “Freedom”, you can't find out what the carbon footprint is of the military...I don't like war, I think it's all about energy and I think it's gonna end up being about water, because we're using it all up...We outta just start getting smart and use what we have. Renewable energy. There's energy from the sun! Hello! It's right there! If you don't put a hat on it can burn a hole in your head. It's something there, let's use it...And start using our plants, not to take away our food, but cellulosic ethanol and cellulosic biofuels that are actually from the waste of making food, that can be fuel, all this stuff can charge electricity, that can do all kinds of things it can charge batteries, whatever without fossil fuel. I drove my car all the way across from San Francisco to Ft. McMurrey, Alberta, to NYC, without using any gasoline.
Robin: So you had it converted?
N: I rebuilt it, yeah, and I screwed it up and burned it down to the ground, and built it again.
H: So it can be done?
N: It can be done, absolutely. A 6300 pound car, a Lincoln Continental '59, the heaviest damn longest craziest car you ever saw – I drove across the whole country without any gasoline. Remember America, places like Germany are 50% renewable today. It can be done, with leadership. We don't have the leadership we need and it's very disappointing that they're all working for corporations.

“We don't have a choice...as consumers when it comes to fuel...if we had the choice, we could make things happen."

H: How do you know so much about all this?
N: I am studying this because it is really is a matter of life and death for millions and millions of people.
H: You care.
N: (Voice cracks) You're damn right I care. That's all I do. That's all I can do. I'm a famous person, what am I gonna do? Am I gonna relegate myself to People Magazine and some tabloids? That's not me. I wanna do something good and if I can't do something good I'll probably die trying to do something good. I've got nothing else to do. What else could be more rewarding? Nothing.

cover from his self titled studio album released in '68

Thank you so much for reading!

Who are some of your fave Bad Mofo's, and why?
 
*Love & Light*
Renata Carmen


Tuesday, August 4, 2015

A few nature pics, notes about some things to come here on the blog, plus, "Flutterby" - A New Poem

Hello there!
It's been longer than I prefer since I've last posted on here :/

Between the Neil Young concert my man and I were lucky enough to attend a few weeks ago upstate, being a heat sensitive person in the peak of New England summer (woah, humidity!), and the sudden drop in temps we've had over the last week (WTF, signs of Fall already? Winter is coming! Ah, Rural Vermont Life), along with a few other health issues I won't get into, I have been pretty laid low.
"Low on spoons" as they say ;)

But, I'm back on my feet, caught up on a major freelance project I've been trying to hammer out for some time (Shameless self-plug: Go get a subscription to Auto Restorer magazine!), and am very excited about everything that is happening right now, including posts for this blog that I've been wanting to get out for some time.

Driving Upstate Vermont in Late Summer is a glorious experience! :)

A preview of what's to come:
- A write-up about the Neil Young concert, and the Monsanto/Starbucks/Grocery Manufacturer's Alliance lawsuit against the state of Vermont
- New Product reviews! - UV Clothing, UV Parasols, Collapsible Canes, and other "Spoonie" friendly wear/aids
- The last part of my series about my mental approaches to managing life with chronic illness
- New B.M.F.F.'s - "BadMofo Fridays" - Where each week I'll be highlighting various people who inspire me  
- A new series about who I am, and how I manage my Fibromyalgia thru Diet and Lifestyle
- Completing a series I started a long time ago about how I manage seasonal allergies, colds, and flus using natural remedies that actually work (something that has plagued me since I was born, and have a ton of anecdotal and scientific evidence for)

It's moving more slowly than I'd prefer, but I'm learning how to work with the Fibro and become a better integrated artist, entrepreneur, and person every day.

And that is all that matters.

Fall colors are already starting to show in the mountains up here in New England

And now, a new piece of poetry I wrote over the last few weeks.
I was in a bit of a haze when it came out, and looking at it now, I am still not completely sure who or what this is about. It could be one of a few matters I've been trying to work thru, or a combo of them.

Either way, it's pretty, if I don't say so myself :)
Enjoy, and thank you so much for reading!!! 

"FLUTTERBY" 
When you pout
with your cherry stained mouth
Do you ever doubt yourself too?
If it came out that I wasn't strong
could I accept this from you?
You, who can do no wrong
you, who always belong
Like Living Summer
she flutters along
And I wither in her path
Like Living Summer
she flutters along
I'm not bitter or anything
but, sometimes, The Wrath is still strong
Fresh as a stove-top burn
You've scorched me so many times
the scar tissue almost covers the fine lines
and wrinkles
Impressions of Time
upon the skin
Your facade is paper thin
but this is a battle I cannot win
No matter how much I rage and foam
Like Living Summer she flutters and roams
as I look on from this gilded cage
Alone



*Love & Light*
Renata Carmen 

Wednesday, May 20, 2015

"The Cosmic Dance" - Poetry

Well good morning, beautiful piece of poetry I don't remember writing last night :)
I'm diggin' the word play and theme of this one. Enjoy! 

feeling sick
but unbroken
these words are spoken
by a warrior with Yaqui provokin'
the fight in my veins
yeah
you thought you killed us all off
well, guess again
we're too damned stubborn and strong
to ever be kept down for long
you see
we've still got the Earth Mother connection
Father Sky looking down, sending us lessons
so easily missed by those all amiss
lost and confused, like you're in a deep mist
but with my Yoeme eyes I can see
the inner workings and harmonies
of this world, this universe, how ever many may be
my culture claims Five
but could be indefinitely
ongoing, ever flowing
outward and in
like a fractal
eternal, infinite
look deep within
and you'll find you're part of it too
the entire universe is also in you
and out at the same time
reality is a mindfuck
but it's fine, more than fine
it's amazing, divine
join in the Cosmic Dance
don't worry about keeping time, or score
just enjoy the present score of music
the Great Party
the dancer's decor
a feast for the senses
but only if your tenses
are focused on the present moment
with no pretenses
own it, be relentless
in your pursuit of happiness and contentment
many naysayers will say it can't be done
but only of their own resentments, my son
so chase down your folly
life's too short otherwise
may you be ever jolly no matter the size
of any battles you might wager this day
remember, you're strong as Yoeme
or whatever Ancestor blood runs through your veins
pay tribute to them by being strong despite the pain
know to experience, to be alive, is to truly be blessed
even when you're stressing or not feeling your best
if life's a play, then let me play my role well
seems my Persona's deemed to guide others up out of Hell
oh well, so be it
I can't think of anyone better
considering my wings have been scorched
but I still have my feathers
I've weathered many storms
Please, give me strength for the next
until this role is no longer needed
then at last I shall rest
when the Persona exits Stage Left
and I move on to whatever Cosmic Play is next...

Sometimes the words come out kinda crazy like
Thanks for reading!
*Love & Light*
Renata Carmen

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Friday, April 24, 2015

"Warrior Cry" - Strength in Poetry

Been facing some personal challenges over the last week, from both flares in my Fibromyalgia and family issues. I try to maintain an ever positive outlook on life no matter what obstacles I'm facing, but often I find I must push through the darkness to find the light in these difficult situations. I must allow myself time to feel what I need to feel, to process my grief and other feelings. With release comes healing, and then the strength to move on. This morning was particularly challenging, and so I put on my headphones, blasted 10,000 Days by Tool at high volume, and this poem came out. It made me feel strong again. My hope in sharing it is that maybe it could help someone else. 

I'm facing the abyss 
once again
I thought I'd left you for good
old friend
Things are amiss 
when they should be golden
Trying to be strong 
without folding 
But I fear
this time I may actually break 
I may have been given 
more than I can take
But I must make 
myself be strong
If not for my own sake
then for you and all else along
with me on this wild journey
This is a burden only I can carry
For I'm a survivor
With each battle I get mightier
You want me?
You'll not take me without a fight
In my veins flows the might 
of my ancestors like
the Yoeme and Thor's Angels 
Fear only destroys and mangles 
twists reality into distorted angles
I shake my fist at the sky
screaming, "I defy!" 
Do I make myself clear?
My flesh and bones may not be here much longer
but my spirit grows ever stronger
Do you hear me?
Gods, Deities 
Earth, Fire, and Water
I serve thee willingly
just please make me stronger
Like the warrior braves from my past
Who fought boldly to the very last
Even when all sight of hope was lost
Left stranded and double crossed
Let me honor their memory 
By standing tall and proud
Screaming war cries as loud
as my straining lungs will allow
I'll not cower in this corner any longer
I call now on all I am as Earth's Daughter
Ancestors, Sky, Fire, and Water
To keep the fight in me
make this warrior stronger
Til my time to rest comes
and I'm needed no longer

Stay strong my fellow warriors and Chronic Badasses :)

*Love & Light*
Renata Carmen 

Please, if you find any value from this blog, please consider making a donation to the PayPal link at the top right of the page. I don't create these posts expecting anything but to help/entertain others, but I am a disabled mechanic/artist who is not currently receiving SSI/SSDI and when I'm flared up it's hard if not impossible for me to get my hustle on. I'm also working on adding Bitcoin here! :) 



Monday, May 27, 2013

"Traveler's Mantra" - a poem circa 2011

very old school style prose, like my pre Hip-hop days.. enjoy!

"Two roads diverged in a wood, and I— I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference."
-Robert Frost

i dream
in fermented grains
of wild plains
and untamed mountains
challenging freight trains
snow covered passes
spring's fragile grasses
summer's warm, flirtatious embrace
and chilled glasses
filled to the brim
may your cup over-floweth
fellow wanderer, explorer, artist, and poet
go boldly forth
into the unknown
leave behind your family, loved ones, and home
and bear witness to scenes
few others have seen
forge your own path
create your own dreams
and chase them down
despite how overwhelming adversity seems
you will experience hunger
you will know heartache and pain
you will face wildfire and tumultuous rain
you may not survive
you may never come back
but to overcome is to thrive
thru suffering and lack
we learn who we are
our weaknesses and strengths
our boundaries
our ability to push the lengths
of soul and will
despite prosperity or ill
to find happiness within
is a blessed skill
even still
without huge risk
there is no great reward
so keep movin' forward
the journey starts with but a single step
you never know what you'll discover
maybe yourself
the final frontier
so cheers, fellow traveler
to you, me, the unknown
and those whom we love, far away
back at home

"Los Angeles" poem written in a NoHo park circa 2002

i walk the streets of the city
it greets the nitty-gritty
day in and day out
while we struggle to be pretty
if i could
i would leave this vain existence behind
become one with the bricks and cement that i find
as my feet lead me in the direction they desire
i'd grow old with the steel fences and barbed wire
many are inspired by tall trees and mist shrouded mountains
but i am moved by well worn bridges and whispering fountains
so let the rivers of afar
meander on their way
i'm gonna seek solace
in the arms of the city
for today..................

"Summertime" poem circa 2008

i stretch myself slowly out of winter’s bitter slumber
coaxed awake by the calling of spring and all her empty promises
thunderheads swell on the horizon
roll thru the sky with threats of thunder and lightning
expressing their anger in loud, frightening gestures
unleashing warm rains, awakening rivers and springs
then suddenly they are gone
dissipated
leaving behind nourished refreshed bursting life
joyful and glorious in all of its abundance
the embrace of the warm breeze
the vivid colors of the land and sky
the touch of the golden sun against my skin
i want to soak it all up
max out all six of my senses
the rolling hills
the breath of the trees stirring in the restless air
the calls of lazy insects
it all culminates in a beauty that’s almost painfully overwhelming
i can’t believe i am here
in this place
at this precise moment in time
wandering freely and without care
like this day will last forever
stretching out into one endless season
of sunlight and laughter and bold exploration
feeling at one where the wild things roam
on top of the world
spying upon those below with eagle eyed intent
i wish i could grow wings
and never have to return to reality
just float
from meadow to valley
mountain peak to forest
never looking back
until the moon calls me home
to my place in the heavens
settling down at last
in a state of peace and winter’s gentle slumber