"Spoonie Rock" - Poetry

Breaking the poetry back out. This is a recent one, just wrote it last week. For my fellow "Spoonies", "Chronic Badasses", or anyone on the struggle...Keep up, stay strong! We all have moments of weakness in our battles - this was one of mine that I managed to turn around in the end. 

For me, freewriting is one of the best forms of therapy.

Hope you enjoy! 

Please tell me that I'm strong enough for this

When you look at me do you see my pain or strength?

I'm trying to bend like a willow in the wind

but I feel I might crack

I fear I may break

If I did a good thing then why 

Why do I 

why do I feel so sad?

Why do I feel so bad? 

why do I cry? 

Why am I so beat down

it's just a hurricane blowing everything around

Flipping my world upside-down

Heavy is the head that wears the crown

These thorns in my flesh are spread all around

Heart and Mind pound

Feeling heavier than gravity

Wanna crawl into a deep, underground cavity

and rest 

Say I did my best

as I breathe my last into the Earth Mother's sweet breast

But that would be a lie

Surely, I'd be sent back to finish what I started

To guide and soothe the lost and broken hearted

A job only I can do in the way that I do it

Now, if only I can be strong enough to see through it

Please

Let the tears stop

Let the pain subside

Give me the strength

to get up and ride

On to better places 

Friendlier faces

filled with the presence of God's graces

Time erases all pain

I know it's hard to think sunshine when you're lost in the rain

But you have everything to gain 

if you so choose

Blessings are often disguised as blues

and wise men as simple fools 

So, follow your folly! 

Be free from sadness

May your heart overflow with gladness

Even at your darkest hour 

What's yours is mine, and I give you Power, 

Strength, and Love

May it flow like a river down from above

and sustain you when you need it most

From sister to sister

and coast to coast 

Together

we're far stronger than one ever could be

United we stand

my fellow Spoonies...

*Love & Light*

Renata Carmen 

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